last-ditch attempt
noooowwww i feel like crazy. mid-term test is 4 days to go. i'm not a part of those brainiacs and smartypants. i am 69% geek, actually. i am a bookworm. but 'math and friends' are just craps i want to get over sometimes. i prefer biology. cool subject to realize that Allah swt. has made everything from the smallest complex form into an individual. everything seems so perfect, structural, beautiful. it is breathtaking<3 p="p">
uhm anyway, not too late to say 'welcome october' eh? i even can't believe this month is october. i mean, like......where's the time goes? i was 10th grader and now i'm on 11th. i was 15 and now i'm 16. i looked at some pictures months ago and realized how things changed. in a positive way and in a bad way. 2012 is a galloping horse. time forced me to move faster and faster, and then it seems like i can't even fully enjoy every single minute of the joy. i want to spend my day, fly by, taste the joy of living, but still do something worth for myself or anyone else for better. i know being a teenager is not always about fun fun fun, but being a teenager means we're halfway to the future. to what we dream of.
well physically i feel less change on myself. i had bangs and now i let it grow longer instead (i got bored with bangs, seriously) and i gain no weights even if i've tried to! heights? well don't ask me. mayb i got some. a little bit. but overal i feel lyk physically 13. yes, i mean not 'nowadays' thirteen. i am tiny. still.
and mentally. unstable. sometimes i feel like lost, sometimes i feel like wanna punch everyone, everything seems so irritating for me. i wonder why is it so hard being a girl. sensitivity. yes. it is the most annoying one. even if i don't always show it to everyone else but i still feel it hurts inside. i feel vulnerable and fragile. and it's sucks because i wanna be tough. moreover, i wanna know how to get rid of 'ends-up-yelling-at-everything'. when you're just so pissed off you automatically talk with higher voice tone,or yelling, ends up hurting anyone else's feeling, but you just didn't mean to. now i'm trying my best to control things and keep my emotion stable, to stay in the line. in short, i am sucks at keeping everything stay in the line actually. still.
these 3 last months is somekind of last-ditch attempt for me. there are some decisions i prepared to get rolled in forward. AAAAAA HOW COME WE'VE (nearly) REACHED THE END OF THE YEAR......hope everything goes well!
so peeepsss let's make a happy ending. make october-november-especially december somehow magical and worth your efforts all along<3 p="p">
XOXO
p.s: wish me tons of luck for the mid-term test! wish you guys a happy october too;3
uhm anyway, not too late to say 'welcome october' eh? i even can't believe this month is october. i mean, like......where's the time goes? i was 10th grader and now i'm on 11th. i was 15 and now i'm 16. i looked at some pictures months ago and realized how things changed. in a positive way and in a bad way. 2012 is a galloping horse. time forced me to move faster and faster, and then it seems like i can't even fully enjoy every single minute of the joy. i want to spend my day, fly by, taste the joy of living, but still do something worth for myself or anyone else for better. i know being a teenager is not always about fun fun fun, but being a teenager means we're halfway to the future. to what we dream of.
well physically i feel less change on myself. i had bangs and now i let it grow longer instead (i got bored with bangs, seriously) and i gain no weights even if i've tried to! heights? well don't ask me. mayb i got some. a little bit. but overal i feel lyk physically 13. yes, i mean not 'nowadays' thirteen. i am tiny. still.
and mentally. unstable. sometimes i feel like lost, sometimes i feel like wanna punch everyone, everything seems so irritating for me. i wonder why is it so hard being a girl. sensitivity. yes. it is the most annoying one. even if i don't always show it to everyone else but i still feel it hurts inside. i feel vulnerable and fragile. and it's sucks because i wanna be tough. moreover, i wanna know how to get rid of 'ends-up-yelling-at-everything'. when you're just so pissed off you automatically talk with higher voice tone,or yelling, ends up hurting anyone else's feeling, but you just didn't mean to. now i'm trying my best to control things and keep my emotion stable, to stay in the line. in short, i am sucks at keeping everything stay in the line actually. still.
these 3 last months is somekind of last-ditch attempt for me. there are some decisions i prepared to get rolled in forward. AAAAAA HOW COME WE'VE (nearly) REACHED THE END OF THE YEAR......hope everything goes well!
so peeepsss let's make a happy ending. make october-november-especially december somehow magical and worth your efforts all along<3 p="p">
XOXO
p.s: wish me tons of luck for the mid-term test! wish you guys a happy october too;3
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